Stories

Something in the writing down of everything you believe to be true, setting it aside, and reading it impassionately the next day gives rise to insight. Yesterday, everything I wrote about the curriculum, what kids want - that's all a story. What happens is there is a curriculum, it needs to be covered, there is an allocated time to cover it, and it gets taught. That's it. Everything else around it is a story. When I took on the job, that's the agreement I inherited - it's part of me being professional, delivering the goods the way it was designed.

Yesterday, we had to deal with an issue of integrity, what happened, what I said, what I didn't say, what I decided, without the story around it. Amazing how I was soooo stopped because all I wanted was to give the juicy details of the story - it was hilarious. We had to run through the process a couple of times and at the end there was nothing. No emotion, I had said everything I wanted to at the time of the incident - without the story, and in that moment I was complete.

No stories

in the end, there is a whole bunch of peace around the incident because into someone else's listening I got to say everything I wanted to say and never said. What that does for me now - I am not triggered by someone making a promise, entering into an agreement. I can see it as possibility for trust and its fulfullment and completion.

.... and its all happily ever after