Catch the tiger by the tail, run with it, or it will eat you up - says my Chinese horoscope. I laugh at that, and every now and again see it played out in life. You know that whole thing imagine it and it becomes real. You presence it.
Being a "yes" to new openings, never done befores, responsibilities, taking on doing the homework the way it's designed...
I am so aware of being human, all my feelings, my experiences, the things that I make mean something and have it all significant and live my life as though that's the truth, forgetting all along - I made it up.
This weekend, and we're only just talking about this weekend:
Fabulous time watching our highschool take championship in a tense game, being acknowledged by college students for being their favorite best teacher as a bonus surprise, dinner with a great colleague, night before put a dent in those chick flicks and household chores, all terrific.
Today, enjoyed watching Burlesque with 12 ladies, home, realized movies needed to be returned... hence:
Tonight, I backed into my neighbor's car, dented my bumper, and allowed myself to feel annoyed for something a whole lot more personal and having this be the "excuse" to express annoyance. Big breathe. It's all good, I came clean. We're good friends and the car will be parked elsewhere, yes, I will pay attention when backing up. "I love you, I'm sorry, please forgive me, thank you."
This is the roller coaster of life, sometimes it's coasting, quiet, perfect and suddenly choices, unexpected action, shaking, rattling, probing, triggering. The roaring tiger's tail.
Homework, being the one who gets to say, to cause it to happen, to take responsibility, out of which so many actions arise that I would happily have said "no" to, ducked out of, walked away from. The up is things are happening, I step into that place of making it work. Whatever that "it" is.
Training upperclassmen to present Academic Follow ups during lunches, helping out in fundraisers, social follow ups, being the facilitator for Unitown, taking kids on field trips, working with them on empty bowls, helping a non-art teacher during my prep time being in her classroom at another school, sitting on the architect steering committee, keeping up with work, creating wholesome recipes, squeezing in workouts, time with Chris, taking on being frugal/saving...
Days blur, I'm just happy to catch up with the laundry and maybe empty out unrecognizable fuzz and melted sludge in the fridge.
Haven't let go of that tiger's tail
yet...
Moulting, shedding, observing thoughts, experiences
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